Late Night Thoughts

It’s 10:51 pm and I’m still thinking about you, about us.

First, I’m so so scared because I don’t know If you’re still with me this 2019. I don’t know If your love is still strong as before.

Den, I’m really scared. What If tomorrow, you will realizee that you don’t love me anymore? That you just love the feeling of being inlove that’s why you’re thinking that you’re still inlove with me.

You know what, Den you’re still the best part of my 2018 and I still want you to be a part of my 2019, and more years.

I want to travel with you. I want to spend my whole damn life with you. I want to grow old with you, Den.

I love you so much.


To: My One That Got Away

December 17, 2018 6:24 am

I don’t know where to start or how to start this because I’m running out of words. 

Hey, how are you? Are doing well? Are you happy? I hope you’re okay. I don’t know why I’m writing this right now, maybe because I missed you so much. I really missed you. 

It saddens me because Christmas is past approaching but I knew to myself that Christmas wont be the same as it was before because you’re now gone. How I wish you were there with me. How I wish I can be with you this Christmas.

I BADLY WANT TO SEE YOU. I badly want to hug you, to kiss you, to cuddle with you, I badly want you in my life, love. Only you. I missed everything about you like everything. 

I can’t help it. I’m crying right now. God knows how much I love you, how much I want to be with you, how much this damn heart misses you, God knows everything about it because you were my there in my prayers every now and then. I just can’t help it. This feeling is so tiring but I still want to wait for you because I only want you, I don’t want anybody else but you wanted me to give up and move on.

I miss you. I miss you so much. Maybe this will be the last time I’ll be writing about you. I will try to move on even though it’s damn hard. I wish you all the best, Den. Please be well, always. I love you, I still love you and I will always love you.